I See a Light!

Thank you so much for the awesome words. Knowing that my words might help someone makes a crappy thing not so bad. This will be a blur soon. There is another side of it, and the real me will be there waiting.

I upped my dose of Fish Oil, and my day started out decently even though I was pretty put out with the LLM. She is so fussy about her wardrobe. I have had 3 people today tell me, "just think about when she's 13." Um, no. I'd rather not.

Called the psychiatrists office today, and informed them that my therapist thought I was in a major depressive episode (scary place). The doctor gave me samples of Pristiq. I've heard great things about a Lexapro/Pristiq combo. That's the light! I start tomorrow.

The evening routine wore me down and the girls were tugging on the end of my rope. I talked harshly to them, they seem to know how to work me when my fuse is short. The BLM is under the spell of our magic elf and can't think about anything else. She slow plays me, can't hear me, and just worked my nerve all over the place tonight.

I have two stories to share about a traumatic visit to the crazy doctor and a folly at the ER (both depression related). I'm just saying that so I don't forget to share.

Thanks for reading. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. I feel them. I really do.