Something is wrong with me. Uh, yeah.... DUH.
I have been a major stress case- up to and including Helen the Herpes, sleeplessness, and unexplainable pain in my back, neck, and shoulders. I cannot RELAX.
I can't think of anything fun or funny that happened in my life today. It was all a bunch of work and crap. Things got accomplished and I even tried Retail Therapy (which didn't HURT), but I felt like I was going a million miles an hour from the time I got to work from the time I eventually left early because I am fragile. I went and tanned. That was nice, and DL was sick and so he's not trying to out tan me right now.
The girls have been freaks of nature. LLM freaked out at bath time because she was entranced with the Wubbulous World of Dr. Seuss. She is watching again, but she's going to freak the fuck out when I put her to bed. BLM wants me to spell everything for her (Momma...how do you spell the Green Grinch) and I was a total bitch of a mom and told her that I wasn't going to be spelling out anything because I'm tired. She asked if I had a headache (sad that my 5.5 year old knows how often Momma has a headache). I told her no, that I was just tired. It makes me feel bad when I don't get to roll around on the floor and play with them. I have to get back to that or I'm going to go crazy.
I think I need to take the next two days off of work and sit in my recliner and go in and out of a drug induced nap. I watched Intervention Monday night- it was a rerun but it was about this lady who was on all of these pain pills. She was a wreck, but she sure looked RELAXED. Could I have one night of relax? I don't want any illegal drugs and I don't want something on a permanent basis, but if I could have one night of a Demerol IV or some shit like that- that would be exactly what I need to relax. Just for one day/night. Twenty four hours. Ok, a weekend. Will they do that if I admit myself for a weekend at a mental health hospital? I'm a pretty good actress and I think I could act buck ass crazy if I needed to. However, I think that goes on a persons permanent record and I don't know that I'm willing to go there.
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Seriously, I do not know how you can tolerate the Phentermine. I took it for a month and felt "jacked up" all the time. Not in a good way, either. Sweating, head crawling, weird.
Some Demerol via IV sounds pretty sweet right now.
Hang in there. Love your blog.
Love your blog Holly...hang in there and make yourself relax this weekend!
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